I have to choose. Should I continue schooling even if my body is already giving up just to have a diploma to be proud of? Or should I just quit school and just open up my own business at the young age of 18? Shit, I can’t decide. This idea started bothering me ever since my mom suggested that I quit school and just open up a business. I’m gradually deteriorating. haha. My body can’t endure the stress of having to submit paperworks and study for major exams any longer.

A few days ago, I have already decided that I would only study until 2nd year college to be more knowledgeable about stuff involved in putting up a business since I am taking up a business course. And after that, I would open up a boutique or something else. I know I would be missing my friends in ABE but I can visit them every now and then or they can pay me a visit at my store. I thought that ends my dilemma. But just now, I realized that I really do want to study and graduate. I want to march down the aisle wearing my graduation outfit to get my diploma. I want my parents to be proud of me. I also wanted to pursue law but I guess I have to say goodbye with my dream of finding justice for the victims of crime. I would envy my classmates when they graduate and I would see myself regretting that I didn’t get to finish college.

What am I gonna do? I feel like I’m a contestant for the Amazing Race Asia and I am facing a road block.

Each situation has its own pros and cons.

If I would quit school, I’d say goodbye to quizzes, assignments, projects and exams. I would get to work and earn money. Kaching! haha. Then I would be able to buy some of things that I want that I can’t with my P100 daily allowance. And besides, why put up with all the procrastinating when I can already work and my parents can finance me with my business, right? But it means that I would get to spend less time with my friends. I’m gonna miss them. I would be missing a lot of fun and action. And I also won’t get to graduate college and get my diploma. If I’m going to continue schooling, I would get to spend more time with friends. I would get to learn new things in school and get to experience new things with my friends. I would also be able to finish college and have a diploma. But that means I have to endure 3 more years of procrastinating. So okay, that’s the reason why I can’t choose between the two choices.

There are so many things to do today. It was my turn to deliver my report in our Principles of Management class. We also have assignments on Accounting. We’re still unprepared for tomorrow’s report in English. I was not prepared for the debate.

Jahn and I ate at Chowking again. We discussed some of the possible topics that could be tackled in the debate in the afternoon. I was kinda nervous because I know Ma’am Jen would “okray” us on how good (or rather how bad) we are at debating for all the students to hear. It was kinda funny because three judges of the debate were like the three judges on American Idol. Sir Ryan as Randy. Ma’am Jen as Paula Abdul. Sir Chem as Simon Cowell?! Okay, change topic. lol.

There was a dating game too. It was fun. The answers of the searchee was so hilarious. It was just a game so they didn’t take it seriously.

I was not born to debate or speak in front of a live audience. I’m a lousy speaker. I wanted to cry during the debate. I let our leader down. huhu. Dammit, I thought I was going to have an attack. Note to self: Don’t join any debate ever again.

Time for exchange gift. Lenai was the one who picked me. She gave me a Hello Kitty toilet paper holder or whatever you call it. I gave Germaine a teddy bear. Lenai gave us heart-shaped balloons. We went to the JPIA’s Dream Date. We had a group date. We availed of the snacks whicb was good for two but there were four of us who shared. It was kinda nice that Sir Harry and Chariecar played a song and dedicated it to me. They weren’t able to play during my 18th birthday so to make it up to me, they dedicated the song “If”. “If a picture paints a thousand words….” haha. There were three pairs whe were forced to dance. It would have been romantic to dance with someone but what can I do, I don’t have a boylet. hehe.

My valentine’s day may not be perfect. I may not have a date. But I think this is the best Valentine’s Day so far because I spent it with friends who are dear to me. Love yah guys.